Postpartum weight insecurity

I’ve gained so much weight and I feel horrible about my self and my weight…..I don’t want to be seen or go out at all… So someone that I’m aquatinted with wants to come and visit us but I honestly don’t want to be seen right now because I’m not comfortable in my skin I just got cleared at my 6weeks appointment to workout and etc… am I tripping ? That I’m not ready to be seen yet as a stay at home mom I have time to really workout and get back to myself or at least lose a little But right now I’m not ready 🥺am I tripping ?