Nose job. Scared but i want it

I really want it all my life i been so insecure with my nose its soo big idk why my parents have big noses so i got it from them.. makes me not wanna go out anywhere.. not take pictures, not be social.., because im that embarrassed of my nose.😰💔🙏🏻:. Plus sometimes i can’t breathe sometimes because of it.. i want this surgery but scared of surgery if im going to die in my sleep😫💔…