To have another or to not …. 😵‍💫😵‍💫

Welp … it’s been almost 2 years since I randomly had this giant wave come over me of not actually knowing if I’m done having kids or not. I was 10,000% sure I was having 2 kids & calling it & now idk.

I change my mind still what seems like every hour, I’m not exaggerating 😅.

I have an almost 6 year old son & a 2 year old son. (2 C-sections)

They both have food allergies, which is terrifying & does tend to make me a bit more hesitant in the “have another” debate.

But I also know I’m well equipped to handle it & God wouldn’t give me what I can’t handle (easier said than done sometimes of course).

I cannot for the life of me decide.

My husband goes back & forth as well.

I’ve been waiting for it to just hit me & it hasn’t.

We’ve given ourselves a window of time where if we don’t decide than we are going to call it & we’re done.. (this coming fall), I turn 34 in October.

Has anyone struggled THIS much with deciding to have a 3rd baby or just another baby in general?? Why can’t the answer just hit me in the face 😅🫠😀

Anyyyyyy words of advice much appreciated! 💙