Hijab question for the Muslim ppls :)

Hello I’m a 25 years old female

I’ve worn hijab on and off since I was 16 I took it off again around 8 months ago but then one month ago I decided to start wearing it again.

I need to talk to someone about this who understands. I live with roommates I stay away from family most of the time except for my mother but my family is only religious on the down low meaning they practice and pray but not too much. Anyway I’m just conflicted. I like the way people are treated on social media and in real life sometimes people different. Social media shows this side where woman are beautiful. I respect it and enjoy watching it.

But when I wear it myself I feel kind of not like myself. I feel unnatural. Not like me. I usually leave my hair natural when I had it out. I grew to loving the idea of doing my hair for a while and I miss it but a part of me knows I will wear it one day but again right now there’s nothing stopping me from wearing it. I just feel like I’m not ready but islamically it feels wrong taking it off. I am very conflicted. I feel very awkward wearing it. The way people stare and a lot of people have the audacity to ask me in grocery stores and shops that why am I wearing that? Is it hott? Aren’t you hott? I’m thinking damn hell is hotter though. I’m just so lost. I want to have a relationship with Allah and set fourth with this. My whole idea of this is just scary. I don’t know who I am at the moment. I love Allah I love Islam I love to pray I pray 2 to 3 times a week nowadays but I feel like I just don’t know about the hijab I’m sorry this is so scattered is 4:44 am and this is keeping me awake

thanks for reading