Just needing to rant

I’m about tired of listening to my best friend talk about her chemical pregnancy (she had a positive test for one day then her period)

She now thinks she’s infertile and can’t have more children. She got 2 very amazing girls and she apparently will keep trying till they get a boy (I have no problem with that)

I’m the WORST person to talk about this to. I physically cannot have children anymore. I’ve had a bilateral salpingectomy, Fallopian tubes gone, all 3 of my pregnancies were ectopic and now IVF is our only way of having a biological child, I was 22 when I was told I am sterile now. That was last September and I’m still struggling with that knowledge but managing.

She EVERYDAY talks about “if I’m pregnant this cycle” “i won’t drink since I might be pregnant” as she hits her nicotine vape. “I’ll be mad if I get pregnant and it’s not a boy” “I hope we get a boy” “I can be your surrogate if IVF doesn’t work”

I don’t think she understands she’s being insensitive. I’ve told her multiple times “at least you’re able to get pregnant” to maybe get it in her head that I don’t want to talk about pregnancy.

I’d do anything to have a happy healthy child and I feel like she doesn’t appreciate what she has. She’s mad her husband won’t get her pregnant because he says they financially can’t afford it, she says “it’s my basic human right to reproduce” “I have other guys that would do it in a heartbeat” I’m just sitting there like girl please stop talking to me about this. I go very quiet and I don’t want to hurt her feelings or kill her excitement. I am thankful she can get pregnant easily but I’m so tired, she talks about “I hate when I see a pregnancy announcement because I get jealous like why do they get a baby”. Like I get that but I’m like dude how do you think I feel.

I know when she finally gets pregnant all this talk will end but like damn. Girl id give anything to have 2 living children, yet she comes off so ungrateful at times.

I know we don’t compare ourselves and our journeys, I’m just tired of hearing about it.

I wish I could still get pregnant.

Sigh, let’s hope this cycle works for her 🤞🏼❤️

Idk how much longer I can listen to her without crying.

Just a rant.

Edit: thank you all for the kind advice, if this cycle doesn’t work out for her I think we will go get a drink and have a heart to heart.