So I currently have 4 kids ages 7, 2, 1 and newborn that was born on 6/15/23. Me and my husband has been talking more about trying again we finally got our first boy but we would love to have another boy. But when I was pregnant we talked a lot about me getting my tubes tied after we have our baby because I been exhausted and facing depression because my husband works and I’m stay at home wife/mom so the kids are with me 24/7 and I told myself and him we are not having anymore kids and ima get my tubes tied after I give birth but I didn’t do it because in the back of my mind I’m still maybe open to having another child. My anxiety is through the roof about it because my 3 recent little ones are back to back no break in between and have had postpartum depression. I preferred to have them back to back to get it over with and my kids are close in age and didn’t want to keep starting over by waiting so long so I decided why not ? But now I’m just very anxious and scared of the unknown on my mental health and our marriage if we try to have another one and worried of our family judging us for having so many kids especially back to back. I love babies and love having my husband kids but I also get exhausted by having to be with them 24/7 because we can’t afford daycare for all the kids I know it sounds crazy to have more kids if we can’t afford daycare but my husband don’t mind me being a stay at home wife/mom and we have more kids but I’m really considering also that I have to put myself first sometimes and think about my health physically, mentally, emotionally. We take very good care of our kids but I’m stuck in between trying for another baby or just close the shop up for good and just be Happy and grateful for the kids we have and not keep facing depression of being alone with the kids all the time and dealing with negative judgments from family. I even lost friends because I have a lot of kids. I just always wanted a big family of my own and I love kids. I’m 28 married with 4 kids what do you’ll think?