First the good- I’ve been married 7 years and have 2 small boys. I love my husband, when I look at old pictures I can remember how in love we were. The thought of losing him makes me sad and the thought of the boys losing their intact family really makes me sad. He does work full time (teacher) allowing me to work part time (2 12 hr weekend shifts) he does watch the kids while im at work and once a night so I can shower….However, after years of fighting to be a good wife our relationship does feel more like a roommate/friend situation. (He has said this for years) My husband has ED issues he won’t resolve so we haven’t been intimate in 3 years. He blames me for this and all of our issues. My husband is very Egocentric and narcissistic. He comes first, then probably his Mom, the kids, then me. He is very Controlling and Misogynistic. He needs to know where I’m at, who im with, every cent I spend, who im texting…everything. But likes to say those are just things a wife should always

“communicate” to her husband. He helps maybe 5% with childcare (except when im at work he does have them) and housework, plus complains often about how I do it. Anytime I mention possibly doing anything alone (which I NEVER do…he guilts me about missing “family time” however he sleeps about 70% of our “family time” which is time we are both home. He says he has depression (off and on for years…sees a therapist) he injured his back last year- so I Now take care of most of the lifting, labor work. He’s not very romantic, sweet, or nice. There just is not a lot of positive things to say about him. He’s a decent dad though he does yell A LOT at the kids and smack them (whereas I do not condone that). Just recently, the first time since being married I found myself super attracted to someone else ( that person does not seem to share the attraction). I just feel like I’m missing being a real partner and enjoying life. But do I really want to tear my family apart?