My husband made me feel like a horrible mom

I’m so upset. I was holding my month old daughter in my lap on a boppy pillow while I was using my wearable breast pump. I didn’t want to bother my husband to get a bottle from the cabinet for me to put my breastmilk in. The cabinet was right behind me and I just had to turn to the side and reach up a little bit. I had a lapse in judgment and my baby fell off the boppy and was about to hit the floor. I literally caught her body in between my legs while she was upright and she didn’t hit the floor or her head at all. I know this was a horrible mistake and I should have never done that so carelessly. I literally worked at a daycare for a year in the nursery and I’ve never even come close to dropping a baby like that.

I felt horrible and immediately picked her up and started consoling her and saying I’m sorry. She cried for less than a minute and then she was back asleep. My husband asked what happened and I was honest and told him. He asked how I caught her and I said in between my legs. He got mad at me then said “I’m never going to let you live that down”. I know it was a really bad mistake but I genuinely feel horrible for dropping her. I started crying because he made me feel so much worse and I told him it’s unfair for him to imply he’s going to keep bringing it up and I don’t want him to tell his parents I did that. I’m so embarrassed even though my baby is okay. He got mad at me for getting mad at him for saying that and we got into an argument. We have been arguing so much since she was born but this is the icing on top of the cake. I know I made a horrible mistake but I don’t think I deserve him saying something like that to me but I think maybe I do deserve it. I don’t know. I’m just so upset and all the arguments recently make me think we aren’t going to work out. I’m so sad and I need advice.