I’ve been dating this guy for 9 months and he flew every weekend to see me, we met each others family and even took family vacations together. A few days ago I decided to finally have the conversation of being official (even though in my mind we already were) and after a 3 day conversation he decided he no longer wanted to keep this going as he’s had bad experiences with long distance relationships and broke up what we had.

It’s been a few days and after 2 failed engagements, an abusive relationship and this I’ve been having multiple anxiety attacks over the fact that it feels like I’ll never get it right. I’ve been in therapy for years to be able to deal with these things I don’t talk about with anyone else but I really feel like this heartbreak is taking everything out of me. I’m so tired of not being able to sleep or eat. I really miss how at peace I felt before meeting him but I’m so lost right now that it feels like I will never get that back.