F19 M21 - The Fwb from HELLLL OMG

For the past 6 months I’ve had a fwb We met on a dating app last year talk for a couple months realized we wernt compatible ended up getting into a huge argument (because he lead me on then ghosted me when I confronted him about it) and stopped talking. Back in May be matched again on a dating app he apologized and we got back in contact we ended up agreeing to just being fwb .

We had sex for the first time In May and it was great nothing special. We would have sex about once a week and really ended up creating a great friendship. We would go out to eat, He would tell me about the girls he was talking to/ dates he would go on and vice versa, we would watch movies together and things like that we could hangout with eachother without it being about sex all the time which was great.

Things just recently took a turn when I randomly decided to get tested and something popped up(thankfully curable) Mind you since me and him started having sex he’s the only guy I’ve been fucking , I knew he was fucking other girls or a girl or whatever but I assumed it was with a condom because me and him had a conversation prior to even having sex that he would wear condoms with whoever he’s with and he agreed.

So I ended up telling him about my test and he acted like he didn’t know what I was talking and saying he has nothing he ended up ignoring my text after he said that and a couple days later ended up texting this huge paragraph apologizing and saying that after he had sex with someone he notice a rash but it went away so he just had sex with me anyway because he thought it was fine I was super pissed that he would even put me in danger like that all I could think of is how worse it could’ve been and how he played dumb when I first mentioned it to him

After that I didn’t have contact with him for a couple weeks he broke no contact by texting me asking if we could still be friends with benefits I said I’m not going to entertain the idea if you don’t get tested first. A week went by and he always made excuses of him being too busy to get tested he wanted me to send addresses of places near him to get tested I very directly said no you’re not a child if you want to get it done you’ll get it done that went on for about another week of fighting back and forth with him to get tested and him saying that he ls fine and how he’s sure he has nothing now

Very long story short he ends up getting tested, tested positive for something (curable) and since then he’s been telling me how him getting something was a wake up call and how he’s only going to fuck me now and how he only wants my pussy and how he’s not entertaining any other girls he ended up apologizing for taking me for granted but it’s sad that it took all this for him to realize

My question is I’m pretty much over it between the him knowingly giving me something and the having to go back and forth with him about why he should get tested. How do I just let go of him? he’s clearly a toxic person I’ve tried but he always just creeps back in there’s way more stuff that has happened that’s making me want to cut him off for good like him having racist friends taking shit about then to me but still being friends with them and etc.

YES I KNOW HES FULL OF SHIT - I need something me to snap me out of being delusional, I literally have no one I can talk to about this kind of stuff