Sooo…

So due to being enabled as a child, I'm realizing that I have a codependency problem and it really bothers me now to the point where I have these crying attacks internally because I'm trying to change the behavior, but all I really want to do is just cry and starve until I also figure out how to get out of debt.

My fiancé and I just got our new place a few months ago, so trying to get used to actually living with someone else away from family is also a big stressor at the moment because of (going back to) my codependency issues.

Not saying that he doesn't have any issues to work on either, it just feels a little harder to get past this without any help. I even asked him not to help me since this is something I have to deal with on my own.

Really just want to stop crying about everything it's annoying especially when the problems get figured out anyway. Is anyone else going through something similar?