Would you watch a porn of your husband from before he met you

I'm 33 and my husband is 35. He made a sex tape 17 years ago. He told me about it but I never thought I would see it. He made an agreement with an old slumlord to make a sex tape and participate in an orgy in exchange for two months of rent. He did it. Then tried to forget he ever happened. The only reason it got brought up is because someone I knew found it online and sent me a link asking if this was my husband. I haven't told my husband and part of me wants to watch it even though I know it would kill me. I'm not sure why I want to watch it when I know nothing good will come out of it besides hurt feelings. Would you want to watch it and would you tell your husband you watched it?