My marriage my not survive this time

I'm breaking down physically mentally and spiritually. I'm the sahm I legit do everything for my family. I currently hurt my shoulder. I'm waiting orthopedic doctor and MRI. Meanwhile I'm being told not to use my arm.

I lost my health insurance because my husband now makes too much money. But we are not financially doing ok. So he's upset about the bills that will be coming in.

I'm not supposed to use my arm at all! That's impossible because I have small children. I had to ask help from my elderly family in their 80s! This is so embarrassing. They cannot keep up with my kids.

My home is so gross the baby got a hair sliver in their hand because I can't vacuum and my husband refused to for a month.

Today my husband was finally home and I ended up yelling at him. For not getting up with the kids in the morning. He didn't make one meal. He left the baby crying on the floor. He left the baby on the floor without changing the baby's poopy diaper or feeding him.

He didn't do the dishes so I had no pump parts when I needed them. He hasn't cleaned the bathrooms in a month. My 80 year old family member did our dishes but he made hamburgers and left all the grease over the stove counter and pans and there were ants crawling on everything. He refused to put away my laundry for three weeks.

I'm tired of asking nicely reminding and making him lists. He clearly doesn't care of the situation. He's played golf hockey and gone out with friends leaving me with all our children.

I'm breaking down in tears all the time. I've been in and out of the ER because of the pain. Now I'm having chest pains because of the stress and I already have heart problems.

I'm overly communicating. I need rest I'm not getting. He's taking advantage of my family. I'm over it. I'm breaking down mentally from the stress and pain. I don't know what to do. I have no other family that can help me. With the loss of insurance I can't afford childcare. Ever doctor keeps telling me to stop using my arm but how? How? My hair wasn't even washed in two weeks and was in knots. I was so embarrassed to even ask my elderly family to help me brush it because it needing washing.

I don't know what to do. I need help.

I'm home alone currently with all my kids my baby now has a fever of 100. My husband is out with friends. I'm just so broken.