It’s time to go..

You know when you love someone you typically try and block out some red flags they might show and try to focus on the good but I’m at the point where I’m like what the hell was I thinking. I been with a narcissist person for 7 years. He has lied to me numerous of times and tried covering them up and if I bring the issue back up he says why are you still talking about that get over it. He was a cheater but always says he never cheated. If you go in his phone you was going to find something and I always accepted it I said we can be done for good if you’re unhappy and have eyes for other women he says nobody is looking at nobody hush. I seen alot of heartbreaking stuff in his phone and he would delete the proof and act like it was never there. He was texting someone about meeting up to get some head he deleted that out his phone once I showed him. And he made it seem like he wasn’t doing nothing and eventually apologized when I was to the point where I was going to wash my hands with him. So recently I have been done with the relationship for a month now just trying to find a place closer to my job once I hear back from them I’m out of here but anyway I haven’t been saying a word to him, been working my butt off and going straight to my bedroom. This is where I been irritated like enough is enough I had a busy month I had a wedding to go to which was my uncle wedding I usually don’t dress up anymore because I’m always working and he saw me like where are you going? I ignored him because it’s none of his business I never ask him where he’s going when he leaves out in the middle of the night every night. And he will keep asking me barging in the room demanding an answer. I’m leaving out and he’s opening the door still asking me texting me constantly at the wedding accusing me of cheating the whole time, saying I’m going on a date and ect. I had to turn my notifications off because he was texting me so much. Then my family had a surprise birthday party and I was dressed up for that and again he’s like where you’re going looking like that and smelling good? Your going on a date?? Me still ignoring him all while my anxiety is going through the roof!! My heart instantly starts beating fast when I start getting dressed to leave out somewhere, he’s like this when I go to the store but anyway he says so that’s how we’re acting now? And kept asking where I’m going. So then he tells me he’s not giving me a dime towards rent he doesn’t have it and said enjoy my date. Remind you he’s been behind on paying his half on things here as it is. All because I left out and he’s mad, he was always like this and I thought he was concerned for my safety then I realized he just didn’t like me going anywhere without him because even when I was with family he acted jealous. I remember when his brothers would come over our apartment he would shut the bedroom door if I was in there no I wasn’t naked or anything he didn’t want his brothers looking at me which I thought was very weird if I needed something out the kitchen he said I will get it for you. One time he was threatening to spend all the rent money all because I was turning off the cable and my reasons for that because they kept overcharging me. I have stories after stories.