Why are things always revelead to me, im in a bad place rn

So I've only been in 2 relationships before the one im in now. Those relationships i always had dreams that they were cheating, or a small feeling in my stomach that something was wrong. I would overthink alot and think im being crazy for it. But it ended up being true. Either by confession or i saw something/read something at the weirdest time. If i had a random feeling one day to check a phone, or look up something, or even when i grabbed their phone to search on googled at that specific time i would see a notification that confirmed they were cheating or doing something behind my back. I always thought it was wrong of me that bring past relationship trauma to my now relationship and i always thought that was me projecting. But now i really believe this is some kind of discernment, or just bad luck in relationships. Im always the one that is committed/loyal and overall always loving to the other person, i don't do things to hurt someone's trust. The "feeling" never works when i meet someone for the first time and get to know them. It doesn't matter whether i went slow or fast with them or if we were friends first. It's like the same thing each time and each guy was completely different which is confusing because you usually think that there are certain toxic traits you are attracted to or similarity but no, each one was different, each one i met in a different way. I don't think i can trust men anymore after this and it's sad i got to this point. It's like im meant to be by myself. It didn't matter if i took time to myself and heal, it still happened. So now im confused. I get things revealed to me in weird ways and random times. Its difficult because now instead of me giving the benefit of the doubt, trust the process, every time when i get that feeling, i need to trust it because i was right each time, i was right since i was 14 and its hard for me. Should i end my relationship and just be by myself. Im tired of getting disappointed over and over. I would like to go to therapy, im just scared to share things, i cant talk to my family about it or friend. Sometimes i feel like this is some generational trauma or curse, my grandma is the oldest and she was done wrong my men, my mom is the oldest and the same thing and me also.