Struggling with things in pregnancy..

I’m struggling with how to feel. My husband had sex with me after I told him basically no, I was too tired (I couldn’t even keep my eyes open… nor were they open when he did this because I just couldn’t stay awake, barely conscious much less) for sex at 3-4 am and he still had sex with me. I had literally rolled away from him and he had pulled me back onto my back to do what he wanted because he in his literal own words “couldn’t sleep”. The only thing I remember is being exposed, cold since we keep the house cold at night and the pain from him shoving it in and not being ready and cum dripping out of me when I woke up later that morning.

I became pregnant from it and I’m not excited for this baby. I feel awful, it’s not the babies fault but I’m just not. My friend sent me this Bible verse which, idk if it was intended to make me feel better about the situation (no I haven’t told absolutely anyone. It hurts to even type this so she doesn’t know) she just knows I’m struggling with this pregnancy.. but the Bible verses she sent me is that it’s not about me, that my feelings need to be done away with because Jesus wants what we want type of deal. She sent me a highlighted massive paragraph of this part in her Bible. Part of me wants to never talk to her again because she thinks we as women owe our husbands sex anytime they ask amongst other things. I don’t know how to take that part of the Bible. I already feel like shit enough on the whole situation.. I don’t even know how to respond to that. I can’t find anything in the Bible about how I’m supposed to feel because it’s everything but joy at the moment. All I can find is rape and abortion/incest. Which I won’t be getting an abortion so that doesn’t apply to me. I’m just so lost.. any words of wisdom, encouragement or Bible verses would be so helpful. Thank you for reading if you’ve made it this far. Included is what she sent me..