I envy the women that have actual good husbands 😫

I swear once I divorce this baboon of a man I am never getting married again. This baboon of a man has traumatized me and has changed my view on marriage forever. He DOES NOT help. No matter how much I beg and plead with him or ask him nicely he does not help. I am with the babies who are twins all day and all night. My daughter sleeps through the night but my son struggles to sleep because he has a deviated septum and nothing helps relives the congestion he always gets at night which makes him wake frequently. So on a good night he wakes every 2 hours but there’s nights he’ll sleep for 30-40 minutes and that’s all I get. When my husband comes home from his princess shifts which are only 8 hrs 6:30am-3:30pm he doesn’t help me with the kids or any house hold chores. But will complain if his clothes aren’t washed or dinner is not done or if the house is a mess. He will call me lazy and a slacker but also won’t help me get any of those things done. I work also but I work PRN (as needed) in the hospital because we don’t have child care and can’t afford childcare. But even on the days I work, I work 12-13 hour shifts off of about 2-4 hrs of sleep I get at night to come home and put the kids to bed, wash bottles and clean dishes because he won’t do it. He’ll just be slumped on the sofa watching tv sometimes with his headphones on so he won’t hear the babies crying. The messages below are from today that I had to work and had no choice but to leave them with him and he can’t even do a simple thing like check on our daughter change her diaper and give her breakfast. She’s been up from what I saw on the camera since 9am and he plans on not feeding her saying that she can wait until I get home at 12pm for me to feed her 🤦🏻‍♀️. Another example last night I worked a 13 hr shift got home at 8:30p with groceries and I had to bring ALL of the groceries in by myself because when I asked for his help he said no, because he just took a shower. So then I also had to put all of the groceries away AND put the kids to bed by myself. And who bought these groceries? I did. He wants me to help him with bills (which I don’t mind doing because I live there) even though my checks aren’t large because I work PRN but yet he won’t help me with chores or with our children.

I can’t wait to be divorced and never look at another man for the rest of my life.