Boyfriend appreciation

Love my boyfriend so much!! We have gone through quite a bit already and we have been together 10 months. We had a miscarriage on Halloween and he didnt even hesitate to come over and just hold me while I cried. He was understanding and gentle with my PTSD to being assaulted and not being able to bear anyone touching my neck (not even my kid). I say "was" because Ive tested it a few times and now he and my kid are the only ones that can touch my neck without triggering me, as long as they are gentle. If my kid jumps onto me and goes to put their arms around my neck, it will trigger me and if anyone gets near my neck too quickly it will trigger me, but otherwise Ive gotten better thanks to him being so gentle and understanding. Hes taken me on dates that he planned (NONE of my exes did in the past, I was the one to plan them and pay and so on). He never lets me pay for anything. Lol. Ive tried and he just gently blocks me from the card swiper and gets his card in before I can get mine out of my purse. My kid loves him. Our kids get along for being 3 years apart in age. Whenever we make love, he makes sure to give me tons of orgasms before he finishes and has given me multiple full body orgasms. And when Im on top, he will mutter how beautiful I am. I barely hear it, but it makes my heart flutter each time. I used to be so self-conscious and have low self-esteem due to my weight. He makes me feel beautiful and sexy and will just randomly stare at me and smile and it just makes my cheeks so red and I just want to smother him in kisses all the time. After YEARS of being used and manipulated and cheated on and such, to have someone like him in my life, I have no words. He is amazing. I cant imagine my life without him. I hope he is my endgame. I love him and I love his kid. Hes also very helpful. Even when he had an injured knee, he took my garbage out for me without me asking. He will help my dad with things as well with no sign of not wanting to, no rolling eyes and such. I would love to call him my husband one day. I cant wait to have a kid with him. We have been trying for about 6 months now since losing our baby on Halloween. I love him and I want to scream it to the world!!