Where do I go from here?

So… I don’t have the best relationship. It’s more bad than good and I’ll be the first to admit I haven’t been perfect. I’ve lied about stupid things but I’ve never cheated and I’ve sacrificed things I’ve wanted so he could have what he wanted. But when I try to talk about how I feel or ask for simple things he gets pissy. I know this is a form of abuse. I also know how hard it is to leave a situation like this as this isn’t my first experience. I decided I no longer wish to have more kids (I have one from my previous abuser)

I’m not really sure how to

So where do I go from here