Indecisive…

Hello, morning! I’m going to get straight to it…

I have a 5 year old who is on the spectrum and also a 5 month old.

I recently found out that I am 6 weeks pregnant and I am not sure how to feel about it. My bf and I have had discussions about an abortion since we feel like we are not ready for another one but I’ve always been against abortions not that I judge anyone who does it I just thought I would never be doing that but we were really caught by surprise with this pregnancy.

He also has 3 kids himself. I’ve been stuck in the middle, I agree to an abortion one day and then I change my mind the next. It’s the most difficult decision I’ve ever had to make and I can’t seem to make up my mind.. I want to see if anyone has ever had an abortion and if so how was that like? How did you feel afterwards; mentally, emotionally and physically? Was there regret? Did anyone ever do adoption before and how did that go?

If you had your babies close together, how was that?

Thank you in advance for taking the time to read and for giving me your opinion or advise.