At a cross roads..

I have been applying to low income housing for close to 2 years. None have panned out yet. We are staying with his parents until ANYTHING becomes available to us.

While I was cleaning the bedroom today, I found a letter (addressed to me), opened. The letter said that they had finally reached me on the waitlist and wanted me to send applicable documents to proceed. The deadline had passed.. by 10 days. I was like WTF! I NEVER saw that letter. I was actually at my mothers house when it must’ve been delivered. Apparently he opened it and didn’t tell me. He claims he didn’t read the letter, he just opened it and put it with the rest of our paperwork and forgot about it.

I find this hard to believe because I was at my mothers house because I didn’t want to be with him anymore. I feel like because I broke up with him and left, when the mail was delivered he hid it from me on purpose so I wouldn’t leave him as the apartment would’ve been far away. He claims none of that is true and if he wanted to hide it he would’ve thrown it away but he might as well have as it’s totally useless now!! How do we apply for close to 2 years and when we finally have an opportunity, you “forget” to mention it?? He kept coming to my moms house to talk to me, to “make things right” and promise me the world and NEVER ONCE told me about the letter or brought it to me. He said his mind was occupied on trying to get me back.

I’m just sooo angry!!!! I don’t know when I’ll get another opportunity like this. To make things worse, he’s not looking for places, he’s not applying, it’s all on me. So I’m doing everything to find us a place and you’re sabotaging my progress?? I don’t know what to do!! Am I being too hard on him? I forgave him for whatever reason I left him for but now this happens..