Baby #2?

I am ready for baby number 2 but my husband and I are going on vacation in January, and I would like to drink adult beverages. But I feel like I can be pregnant and not drink alcohol. I don’t know why it matters that I want some alcoholic frozen drinks on vacation without our toddler - when I could be pregnant and still enjoy the time away. I also feel like I’m at a good time in my life of exercising and feeling more like myself after two year postpartum. Do I want to go through all the pregnancy and sleepless nights? I want to but it sounds horrible, but I truly want one more baby and a sibling for my daughter. Do I sound crazy? I don’t know… this has been a difficult decision, am I the only one feeling this??