Bad Mom

I don’t know where to start but my baby is 3 months old now and he cries almost all the time, wants to be held all the time (and mostly he wants to be held by me) and when he’s held he wants us to stand … I just feel exhausted, starting to hate my life, don’t feel that I could do sex anymore.. and crying almost 3 to 4 times a week.. I just feel stressed all the time even when he sleeps because I don’t want him to wake up and start crying 😢 I just feel exhausted more than happy that I have him .. sometimes I slap my face because I don’t know what to do anymore I just can’t handle it and I feel guilty all the time because I know that I love him and he’s smart and cute but It’s just so hard …