Can i still be dealing with postpartum depression

A year later? 😥 first off my body hasnt even snapped back to when i was skinnier… obviously it got bigger but my stomach is the one i feel like it didnt even go down as far as shen i gave birth like it stayed the same😥 am i ok? How come my stomach didnt go down?

Im trying my hardest to get skinny and not eat alot .. i still feel that overwhelming feeling sadness like im alone i cant breathe theres alot on my plate… sometimes i just wanna run away… the only thing thats helping is drinking and taking cbd gummies helps with my sadness to calm down and stress too…. I have a 3 year old and a 1 year. I just feel like i still haven’t processed having babies of my own like its so surreal to me that i gave birth to babies and how my body produced humans. i thought i couldnt get pregnant at first wasnt expecting my blessings. God really blessed me but still i feel so empty like idk what kind of feeling im feeling anymore like stressed overwhelmed my mind is racing so hard……..😥