When I was in school, I wasn’t popular. I had a small group of friends. I got bullied. I had low self esteem and I would do things to make people like me. Even stupid things that got me in trouble.

I’m in my late 20s and I had a glow up since then. I have matured and I have more confidence in myself.

However, I’m embarrassed sometimes about my past. I don’t like to think or talk about it.

2 years ago I had my group of friends from high school over to my new house that I moved in. We were drinking and playing games. And one of the guys started talking about me in school and how I was a loser and how I got in trouble in school. I was super embarrassed because some of my friends brought their bfs/gfs that didn’t go to school with us, so they didn’t know this stuff. I felt judged.

I currently have a bf that iv been with for a while. And he has never met that group of friends. I’m worried that they are gonna tell him about my past and I’m gonna be embarrassed. I’m not worried that he would t like me because he has told me some stuff about his past and he did way worse than me. I’m just embarrassed about it.

I really just want to distance myself from people that give me anxiety about it.