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Okay so my 'boyfriend' almost ended it because I took paracetamol when he wasn't there? I took an over dose and promised I'll take it in front of him or my parents I understand that he's just caring but then he almost ended it because I " don't let him call other girls fit" 
I get jealous if he goes out with his friends in case there's girls (which I ain't I just ask if there will be girls I don't mean to annoy him) then he said I better be sorry as I kept apologizing..
I just I'm going through a lot. I've not long got him back he's saying I don't trust him yet I have to ask him to go out with my mates cause I feel shit and I tell him who I'm going out with  or he tells me to. If I end up going out like last Sunday I got back and he kept having 'bad thoughts that I'll cheat'. I don't know anymore I'm on eggshells trying to make us work. I want me and him to work. I love him. But I don't think he loves me the same? Am I weird or something I ask if there's going to be girls? Or that I don't like him calling other girls fit? It hurts. I feel so worthless 😭 advice?