Ok, so.. this past weekend 30th-2nd my mom had made plans for a trip to go camping for my kids. I decided not to go and stay home. Let her have a weekend away with the kiddos (2 boys - 5yrs & 2yrs)..

I ended up making my own plans to see my boyfriend who flew down to visit. The whole week. 31st-10th..

I had came home on Tuesday the day after the kids got back into town with their grandparents hung out for a few and called their dad to come to stay with them Tuesday - Sunday..

I am 25yrs old I am a stay at home mom. I am separated from the kids dad.. we were together for 8 yrs. I have been recently beginning of this year been going through it mentally. I am going to therapy. For my depression.

I decided to take a week away because I am always home with the kids their dad is never around to help so him coming to watch them Tuesday-Sunday was needed.. I don’t look at it as abandonment because I am not the only parent here. They have a dad. But since I decided to take time for myself and live my life I am neglectful and selfish..

I have had my whole life controlled since I was 14.. & I am 25 still being told how I should live my life. I’ve never once went out for myself let alone that long.. but, just.. idk.

My bd was PISSED when he got to my house and found out I was leaving with my bf. But, my bd has all the time in the world for himself to do as he pleases but since I left to have a life like he does.. I am a bad parent when he’s not even around.. like he gets to be home all day doing absolutely nothing.. & I am here at the house 24/7 with the kids dealing with depression. I want to start living my life. I love my kids but I want to get out and not be in a shell all day..