I’m jealous of people who have a village

First off I want to start with saying that no one is obligated to take care or be responsible for my kids. This is just me venting out. So, I do believe it takes a village. It’s tough not having a support system or help. So, my parents they don’t believe in helping. Apparently since they didn’t get help I shouldn’t either. So, I’m jealous how my friend kept her dream job and not only gets help from one set of grandparents but from both. And not only that but she’s also able to provide for her family and they have two incomes. So they aren’t under financial stress. My parents all they do is criticize me. It’s like geez if you don’t want to help or be supportive at least don’t kick me when I’m down. They say comments like, raising kids is a walk in the park. If you’re a SAHM what do you all day that you have a stack of dishes and piles of laundry. Sometimes I’ll be drowning and I don’t say anything so they won’t make me feel worse. Omg and after I had my baby I didn’t shower for a week and going through ppd and apparently ppd isn’t “real” and they blame me for making stuff up. Idk but after becoming a mother, my own kids I’ll always be there. Didn’t have time for dinner? I’ll bring takeout. Need laundry done. I’ll watch the kids or help with laundry. I wouldn’t take over the parenting responsibilities but just be a supporting grandparent. It’s so weird but it’s kinda like they want me to fail or enjoy seeing me struggle. And God forbid I ask for help. I would hear about it for weeks. And I know someone is going to comment, well you wanted kids.