I can’t understand how 1 wonderful thing happens like my first pregnancy btw i thought was Never gonna happen; just for all this stress and bullshit to follow. I cant catch a break. My cars in the shop, which has cost me upwards of 4000$ between repairs and a rental…also btw im paying for repairs that the dealer refused to help woth when i purchased smh…husband loses his job so ill be taking uber or Lyft to n from work for the next few weeks bcuz of course i now have to pay for all of it😞 grrreat. Im behind on all my bills and cant buy anything for the holidays; all going to the car along with reregistering it! My stepson is failing school and pretends hes not like dude how the f##k u gona graduate with D+’s? And my question why is he ok with that? Im just so disappointed with life right now. Every time the holiday season comes its some bullshit, and im left to oick up the pieces🤯. It truly makes me want to stop caring about everything, and just give up. Im tired of fighting the negative and feeling as though its my fault somehow. Worst part is j cant even cry about it; all i can do is sit in it and wait for the other shoe to drop. Im just tired, i dont need advice bcuz i know whati have to do….but support from an actual friend would be nice. Living out here in Ohio and all my family is back in ny; including the one self absorbed friend i think i still have. Im just sad n uneven. Any prayers will be much appreciated.