I don’t even have words

So I am 2 weeks post having a salpingectomy or a fallopian tube removal. I am going to need potential fertility treatments my fiancé and I have been trying over 2 years before hand. Well this Christmas my brother and his wife announced they were pregnant. Literally a week after having my surgery and my fertility news and I am trying to be so happy for them but I am internally gutted. I just wanted to have this be me. But they weren’t even trying and it happened for them on their first try. Maybe I am the jerk for feeling this way but it’s just so unfair. My brother didn’t want to be a parent yet. And he states he’s too selfish to be a dad. I just have so many emotions and I don’t even know what to do with them.