How to not punch her in her shit

I’m 19 I confided in my mom about my rape and she called him because she didn’t believe me that was an ordeal , but basically after that she blamed me on a family trip for it and threw it in my face I had to try everything to not punch her. Yesterday I went out for food because she got food I didn’t like and got mad bc I went and got McDonald’s and began slut shaming me and blaming me for it, idk why pick me women have daughters they have so much internalized misogny all that internalized misogyny and she didn’t do that when my older sister even began having sex at her age!