I gave this man 4 years of my life

I gave my husband 4 years of my life. They may not seem like much but he was my first boyfriend and who I had consensual sex with for the first time. I was 30, he was 38. I was scared to have sex because I am a victim of human trafficking. He already had kids and I love my step kids. I found out I was pregnant last month and was happy because I thought I would never have my own babies. Everything was perfect. Then I find on my husband's second phone. I have a 13 year old step son and I find videos of my husband committing child 🍇. He has hundred of videos of either him committing 🍇 on my step son or just child 🌽. I was sick to my stomach. I didn't want to bring it up to him so I took it to the police.

I also miscarried my baby the very next day. I lost everything and I'm devastated. I also found out that both his mom and my step kids mother knew this about him. When my step son was questioned about how long it had been going on he said he doesn't know and he remembered this always being apart of their relationship and admitted his mom knew it happened and had walked in on it before. Finding out my MIL also knew and she even blamed me for her son being arrested saying if I did my duty as a wife he wouldn't have been tempted to keep doing it.

At the moment my step children are still here with me because their mom is now under investigation from CPS and I'll do anything to keep them safe. I just can't believe I gave 4 years to this man and lost my baby in the process. I'm just now realizing there were signs that I missed. One being my step son never liked oils or lotions. It's because when my husband brought it out he knew what was going to happen but I never put 2 and 2 together. I don't know how I managed to fall for my husband's facade. I'm a fucking idiot. In a dumb idiot