Baby loss at 17 weeks

I lost my baby girl in December 27 and now I have to wait 3 months before I can have sex with my husband with doctors advice and tradition. My heart aches for the child I lost, for the chance of being a mother. The waiting game is killing me, I feel I have no control over my body. I’m constantly searching for ways to help me conceive fast when I finally the start trying again.

I’ve been depressed, hospitalised because I struggle to deal with the loss.

I need stories of hope that it gets better.