Embracing single motherhood ?…

I need some solid advice. I messed up things during my relationship, my partner now makes every thing about him in every way and we are expecting my first child and his 4th.

I feel as though I have no support. Not as to sweep everything under a rug and say it never happened but as a couple, having discussed and agreed to move on from matters together then having things thrown up in my face every few weeks it’s tiresome. He constantly accuses me of lying even when they proof it clear as day that I’m not. Takes time to provoke arguments instead of asking me things like “have you eaten? How are you feeling?”

It’s just stressing me out at this point, I am understanding to how he feels and trying to do my best to validate his feelings but it gets me nowhere because even after we end up back at square 1 no matter what positive I’m doing. I want to enjoy this journey and my pregnancy, I want to be excited and feel joy live and peace. But at the two month mark, I’m worried 😦 I may not make it to full term and that SCARES ME.

I’m constantly stressed I’m not depressed, and my health is taking its toll between morning sickness, shoulder issues, and constant headaches no matter what precautions I take.

I would love for my family to stay together but I’m at my ends rope and truly didn’t what to do or where to go from here.

Please any advice would be so helpful rn, I never do this but I’m at my ends rope.