Unexpected TTC Emotions

Hi everyone!

So my husband and I decided to start trying to start our family after putting it on hold for a few months due to family deaths and a whole world of big changes, and we are so excited! We had our first “session” of actually trying and afterwards I had this weird feeling of “holy crap we really just made a huge decision..it wasn’t a sad or regretful feeling whatsoever, but moreso a nervous and slightly scared feeling. We both have wanted children for years but wanted to try and get certain life things settled beforehand. We are so excited and I want to have a family with him so badly, but is it weird that I had that feeling? Parenthood is terrifying but so incredibly exciting, so maybe it was just a realization that, whether we are blessed to conceive quickly or have a long TTC road ahead of us, that our lives are going to change? I obviously know they will change, but I didn’t expect to feel anything other than excited after that session. We also are not telling anyone we are trying because we both feel strongly that it is nobody’s business because it is like inviting them into our bed (in our opinion), so I don’t really have anyone to talk about that weird feeling with.