Looking at Bfp wanting my own

Krystin • Im 19 happily married with our first baby boy due in april!
Okay I so badly want a baby that I go on success story's to look at all the faint Bfp and dark ones. I guess after so many bfn I can't belive in that secound Line showing up lol anyone else do this?or just stare at they bfn wanting I to be Bfp?