I hate being a mom

Am I a bad mom because I hate being a mom? I take good care of my baby and I would never let on how much I hate it. If you ask my mom or husband I'm the best new mom they've seen and she "can't believe how well I've adjusted" but man on the inside I'm Miserable. I want to pull my hair out. I love my baby but I don't feel ready to be a mom. I'm 19 I got married last year and my baby was born 6 weeks ago. I know age is no excuse and nobody forced me to do these things but I just feel so overwhelmed with all the changes. I want my mommy :( lol