Need for Advice

I went in for an ultrasound on Monday and they found no heartbeat. The doctor had us come in for another on Tuesday so my husband and I could feel secure. He gave us the option of a D&C; because I have had recurrent miscarriages. On Wednesday we went in and had the procedure done. I honestly felt okay after Monday when I came home and cried with my husband. But after the procedure I don't know what to feel. I just don't feel like myself and I want so badly to get back to normal--whatever normal is--and start trying with my husband again. I am on pelvic rest until the 6th by which I hope to feel more like myself.

I don't want to alienate my husband emotionally because I don't know what to feel. I'm just starting to feel so guilty and I have no idea why.

Does anyone have any advice?