Sometimes I feel like I'm a bad mother...

Of course are baby was planned. I'm fixing to turn 21 and my hubby is fixing to turn 23. I wanted to have him so bad but he is a year now...and I don't know deep inside I feel like I'm not really really close to him. I mean I know I try to teach him things like no and stuff...like being more strict if that makes since unlike his daddy. I know that doesnt make since but I feel like we arent as close and it bothers me... I just don't know what to feel