Miscarriage Almost Killed Me

So I had been light bleeding for 3 weeks due to a blighted ovums I had, and then I started to heavy bleed yesterday, so bad that I was soaking through my pad, so bad that even a dog pad was getting soaked through, so I was immediately rushed to the hospital by my husband. What happened was I was losing way too much blood, I passed out once, threw up a couple of times. We were there till 12am because I had to have a procedure . It was kind of like a D&C; but they stuck a straw through my cervix and vacuumed me out with only pain meds in my system, because they didn't have to put me to sleep. The straw going through my cervix hurt. But that's about all I could feel because I was extremely doped up on morphine and Motrin and Ativan. Now mostly I'm lightheaded and can't really do anything for myself, they told me to take it easy. Im having to take iron pills because I had extreme blood loss. The doctor told me if I would have waited any longer ,my body wouldn't have been able to take losing so much blood so eventually my body would have just gave up on me. It was a very traumatic miscarriage. My miscarriage just about killed me, how do you move on from an experience like this ? Makes me scared to get pregnant again 😞 the most traumatizing experience I’ve ever been through .💔