Please and thanks

Hello everyone i come to u today because i just really want every one to pray for me and my 2 children im going through one of the worst times of my life and i dont understand why this ia happening to me 😞 please just pray for God to give me strength i been feeling so empty lately no desire to live or go on i even thought of committing suicide because i rather be dead then endure this constant pain ...i just sit in bed all day an constantly cry i cant even be a great mom for my kids because im so depressed 😞 ive been praying but i need prayer warriors help cause i cant do this by myself i really appreciate it 😞