Friends with benefits

I’m currently friends with benefits with someone. His dick is amazing. Neither of us want a relationship right now, which makes that arrangement even more perfect, but recently we haven’t been seeing eye to eye. I understand he texts and talks to other females and I do the same with other guys. I just feel like i’m being treated like an option. I still wanna feel special. I don’t want to feel like he’s giving the next person bomb dick and me mediocre. I want something that no one else has. Maybe that’s too much to ask for? I told him I was going to do the same stuff he does. He got upset. Me and him had this convo where we expressed we deal with multiple people. I just don’t wanna know about it, or see it. Because just fucking or in a relationship I’m selfish. I want some parts to myself. They can have his time and entertainment but his dick thats mine. Before y’all judge. I am 18 going on 19 and in college. This isn’t the time to look to settle. It’s the time to experiment and have fun. But is it still wrong to affection from someone? Not love, but affection, attention, sex. Or am I doing too much?