Boyfriend and I are taking a break 😭

Okay so me and my boyfriend are kinda taking a break. I’m so scared and nervous and I love him so fucking much but I’m trying to stay strong. He wants me to mature a little so he is kinda kicking me out and he wants me to get my own apartment and pay the bills on my own and he will live there with me and after 2-3 months he will start chipping in on the bills. He wants to see if I can handle that kind of responsibility. And I’ll be honest I’m a kid, I’m 19 and he will be 21 in October. He already transitioned into an adult, I am slowly doing it. Except the way my brain works I just need a push to help me. I have been working two jobs now for almost 2 weeks now so I could help us save up for a house. I’m so stressed out and exhausted and I’m also on my period this week. Also I’m a crybaby but when we had our talk tonight it went very well (not as good as our other talks) I didn’t cry, I was strong and held it together. But he has commitment issues and after commuting to something for so long he says “fuck it.” Or “I’m done” and gives up on it for awhile then he usually comes back to it. I just needed to vent. Plus I’m fucking clueless cuz him and his mother have been helping me through this whole adulting thing because my parents are basically dead beats. So now I can’t ask him for help and I’m struggling. 😫 also we have been together for 3 years now and I have been living with him for more than a year