Marriage Advice 😭🙏

OK Ladies let me introduce myself first before I ask for help My Name is Jennifer I'm 37 with no kids I have been With My Husband for 4yrs Married 2 yrs he is my best friend since Jr high we lost contact for years lived our separate lives or heart aches and upsets but meet up years later and fell in love . He has grown up to be the Husband I knew he was meant to be. He gave up his alcohol addiction for me. He is a great provider and loves me unconditionally. We do everything together. Except talk😭I suffer from depression and anxiety 😩since October after losing our first child that was growing in my left fallopian tube which had to be removed as well 😭 Then following that in November I lost my job of 4 1/2 yrs and then in December my Mom health started to decline due to her kidney failure 😭. Not to mention January 4, 2019 I lost my grandfather he was 98 my Mom took her father's passing hard and started to give up. I lost My Mom 3/27/19 and haven't been the same since she was my everything 😭now I can't find job or focus on trying to get pregnant again. My husband has been by my side threw it all his so comforting and loving. But I feel alone sometimes we don't conversate I hold all my feelings in and once I'm frustrated I blow up😤I don't know what to do is it me? Or is my marriage going down hill too? I have brought it to his attention he just stares at me and says what do I want to talk about if I begin to cry of course he hugs me. But I don't need comfort all the time I want conversation I want to know what we're planning next what we need from one another? What's our goals? Does anyone have the best husband with no communication?