I love my husband very much. And for the most part we have a very strong relationship. We have an almost 1 year old daughter together and she is light of both of our lives.

My husband has a drinking problem. He has since we met. After one day of being completely blacked out, and sicker then hell for two days he decided to stop drinking. Halle-freaking-lujah. Until he met up with a longtime buddy.. now he is back to drinking every weekend.

He says some of the worst things to me when he is drinking. He has called me a whore, pirate hooker, piece of shit, etc. things I would NEVER hear out of his mouth when he is sober. He brings up my past, he says I don’t love him, he says I’m cheating on him. He says a lot of extremely hurtful things.

It honestly makes me want to kill myself to hear him say these things. And I’m getting to the point where I don’t know if I want to stay. Outside of him drinking we get along great, we have little bickering arguments but that’s normal I feel. He is my rock, and I can’t imagine life without him...

But I don’t know if it’s worth the pain he causes to stay. I don’t want to be a single mother. I don’t want my daughter to have a split family. I want her to have happily married parents, something I didn’t get. I want our marriage to work out for our daughter’s sake. Every time I talk about his alcohol problem he acts like it isn’t a problem. But he constantly says “I don’t want to be like my dad” (whom is an alcohol, and his grandfather was one.)

Does anyone have ANY advice? I don’t know what to do, im sick of feeling like a useless piece of shit but I don’t want to leave him either. I don’t know what it’s going to take for him to realize he needs to completely stop drinking. Our marriage was so much better for the 4 ish months he didn’t drink.

Am I going about this wrong?