Post break up

I'm a few days in. Being alone sucks, but I was alone even while I was with him. Our son is still under a year. He won't remember all the things his father did. I couldn't stay. Nights are the hardest. I want to reach out to him so bad. But I know he is busy with Josie. Or Kayla. Or Hannah. Or Gabrielle. Or Krystin. Or Jodi. Or Corene. Etc.

I promised my son I wouldnt go back.

How do I get my mind right? My head back on? How do I remember myself? Who I was before him.

I need to get strong again. I WILL give my son a good life no matter what it takes.