How do you control explosive anger?

I’m not safe for my infant daughter or husband.

Will she get taken if I seek therapy?

It’s really bad, I can’t control it and I started to break things. Glasses, bowls etc.

It’s not often, once or twice every few months, but any amount is too much.

She doesn’t deserve me like that.

I deserve to have her taken.

I deserve to be taken.

I don’t have anyone who can help take her overnight. Or for extended periods of the day.

She’s breastfeed and doesn’t like formula.

I don’t have enough milk for even a day saved up anyway.

I always have her .

I don’t know.

She needs me but what if I can’t get better?