Anxiety!?!

I feel weird to even feel this!? But does anybody else have trouble swallowing sometimes I feel like it happens more when I’m anxious like I think about the process of swallowing and then I get too anxious and can’t swallow and get even more anxious; I feel like something if stuck in my throat; I don’t know if this is a tick of mine, I do have PP depression and anxiety and on medication for both, i don’t know what to do!? This is driving me crazy it is especially worse during the nights I think it’s because I think more during the nights,last night it gave me such a major panic attack I couldn’t breathe, this makes me so sad i ask myself why can’t Be normal and hate myself for feeling this way, I was just getting better since I got put on the right medication and now this is happening, I hate myself so much why doesn’t my brain work,why!!I would give anything to just feel normal