Polyamorous relationship

Hi, I was raised Catholic and lost my connection with God. I am trying really hard to get my relationship with God back to being my number one priority but I'm struggling. I need God in my life. But there is this other women who is my other half, we are pretty much the same person. I have never had a connection this strong before. She is with this guy, they both want to date someone. And have all 3 of us be together equally. I have always liked other girls but when I was younger after my first gf I realized it was wrong in God's eyes and never looked back until this girl just appeared one-day. I just need help working through this. Bc I want to do what's right in Gods eyes but I'm not sure what that is anymore. It's okay if you tell me it's unholy and wrong I just want to hear all opinions ❤️