Will i get over this? (Please read! I need advice) 😩

Ive only been in 1 relationship (my sons dad) before my current boyfriend. I am slow to let people in, and depends on Peoples personalities. Me and my boyfriend now love to joke around together, and be playful. I know he doesn’t judge me and would probably LOVE to see my weird side, but i have yet to show it. Now for my ex, Not sure if it was because he saw my vagina RIP open from giving birth, or if we spent years together to get comfortable, but i could make the ugliest faces, so the weirdest dances in front of my ex (who was a cheating manipulative narcissist who never really understood me) and feel comfortable. And now, my current boyfriend, he just gets me. We have so much in common. Btw we started dating 8 months ago, and he officially asked me out 2 months ago. Will i be able to be fully myself Soon? I want to sing and dance and be weird in front of him, im starting to slowly, but its taking longer than i thought. Advice ? Sorry if this was all over the place and hard to follow along with